My girls and I got to spend a few days with my sister and her kids out at the Adriatic Sea...
As we sat on a boat, swaying in the rhythm of the waves, soaking in the views of distant old fishing villages, I realized:
“This is exactly what I wished for!”
I remember as if it was yesterday... it was one of the darkest and loneliest times of my life.
I had recently given a birth to my second daughter, I had a thriving business, husband who loved and adored me.
But I could not see or feel any of it.
I burnt out. I battled postpartum depression. I felt disconnected from the business. I missed my family from 4,000 miles away. I felt trapped.
Above it all, I felt guilt, feeling less-than.
It took me a while to gather the strength and ask for help (while many people around me kept telling me it was all in my head...)
And one of the conversations at the time was about my desires... like, “when will you realize that everything is ok?”
And my response was “I see sunset, ocean, warm breeze, and kids laughter. I see my sister and our kids playing while we talk. We’re together with our families. I can feel the calm. Knowing it’s all good.”
So, there we were.
And since that conversation, I turned my life around.
It took work, it took surrounding myself with the most amazing people. And letting many people go.
I feel deep connection, divine connection with my girls who are finally experiencing something more that is enabling them to step into and grow into their human form as confident, understood, heard, respected, and cared-for beings with their innate gifts.
And above it all - my marriage is stronger than ever before. The love, appreciation, acceptance, care, connection for my husband has never felt so intense. So deep. So right.
Realization of my strength, resilience, determination, power, brilliance and yet embracing my femininity, my gentle and vulnerable side, learning how to surrender... I have never felt so confident, clear, grounded, in the knowing.
To get to this point, it also took courage to get way out of my comfort zone, to shatter generational patterns, to rewrite old belief systems with the ones true to me.
It took restructuring my business because too many things were no longer congruent, they felt limiting, they felt confining.
Today, I am able to give myself, my family, my clients what they want & need...and feel good about it.
What I realized along the way was the same thing that my clients do: when you desire something, you have the capacity to realize it.
When you want something, nothing will stop you.
And when you go all-in, you will be shown ways to make it all much simpler, easier, faster, more pleasurable, more enjoyable, more congruent, more purposeful, impactful, fulfilling, meaningful.
And this is where I want you to pay attention because I know that it applies to you, too.