You know when you're so close you can almost taste it? And then - it's gone. Again?
You have put so much effort into creating it...so much effort into becoming... You are almost there...
And then you STOP.
On the outside, you appear calm, collected, like you have it all together.
Others marvel at your capabilities, strength, trailblazing courage, perseverance, stamina...
But you and I both know, that what's going on inside, in your mind, in your heart, in your soul - is a freaking tornado!
Look - you and are nothing special - we are like the majority of people. (sorry to burst your bubble, you will thank me in just a moment.)
And what do most of the people do when they are about to reach this new, BIG goal? Finally realize that vision? Perhaps - just take that FIRST step that will change everything for them?
Well, they give their control to their subconscious. To the ego. To their 3-year-old-self.
Wait, Sara, what are you talking about?
Have you ever stopped, completely overcame by fear? Fear of "What if I fail? What if this doesn't work out? What if I lose the money? What if they reject me? What if I succeed?"
Have you ever stopped, thinking "who am I to do this? How can I possibly think I am good enough for this? How could this possibly work out for me?"
Have you ever stopped, feeling completely overwhelmed, exhausted from doing every thing you could possibly think of? To the point where you simply felt - paralyzed?
Have you ever came up with the excuses as to why this is not yet ready, not yet perfect?
Have you ever felt a rage of emotions coming to the surface - but you chose to just ignore, numb them instead? When you wanted to say something but you chose to stay quiet?
I know I have. Many times. In fact - I just caught myself seeking perfection earlier - knowing very well that there is NO SUCH THING as perfect.... and that sometimes, all that matters is a MVP (minimum viable product).
See, nothing special. We've all done it.
But you know why - if it is TRUE what you're saying... If you're really DETERMINED to achieve what you have set out for... The, there is only ONE question to ask yourself:
IS THIS WHAT YOU TRULY WANT?
Because if it's not, you will bust through the obstacles, blocks, you will FIND A WAY. And you will ask for help.
Because here's the thing - you can be the best neurosurgeon in the world, you cannot operate your own brain.
So again, look for the patterns that are coming up. Look for the limits you're imposing on yourself.